My name is Micah Hobbs and I’m a grateful believer in Jesus, and I’m in recovery from alcoholism and anger. Twelve years ago I would not have been willing to say that. I thought I was in control and I certainly was not grateful, or a believer in Jesus. I was living in a dark insanity of dysfunctional behavior and addiction, but I thought I was fine.
God blessed me with a moment of clarity nearly 12 years ago, and I admitted for the first time in my life that my life was out of control. Step one puts it like this: “We admitted we were powerless over our addictions and compulsive behaviors, that our lives had become unmanageable.” Paul puts it like this in Romans 7:18, “I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out.”
That was so true for me. I had a lot of good intentions of putting the alcohol down and changing my behaviors, but I could never carry it out. My life was unmanageable in every way.
For me, the most powerful part of step one is stepping out of denial and admitting that I had a problem. For four years I was the “manager” of my life and I did what I wanted to do. It was humbling to admit that I was the maker of my mess; but, when I said that out loud, it was truly the first step in my road to recovery. There is power in saying to the Lord, “ I cannot do this anymore. I tried to manage my life and I made it a living hell. I need You to step, take control and do for me what I could not do for myself.”
Step one: turning the powerlessness of my life over to the ONE who has the power to turn it around.
Grateful Believer,
Micah
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